The Dark Season – Justin Bieber: Seasons

Justin:The first time
I smoked weed was in
my backyard here.
I got super stoned,and then I realized
I liked weed a lot.
That’s when my desire
to smoke weed started,
and then I started
smoking weed for a while.
And then I started getting
really dependent on it,
and that’s when I realized
that I had to stop.
I don’t think it’s bad.I just think for me,
it can be a dependency.
But, yeah, first time
I smoked weed, I was– I don’t suggest this,
but I was 13. Yeah, 13. 12 or 13.♪ Not sure what I was doing
before you ♪
♪ I quit trying
to figure it out ♪
Was there anything
that really concerned me? Um… Yeah, I think maybe, like– maybe the lean, when he was drinking that. Can I say that? There was a time
where I was sipping lean. I was popping pills,
I was doing molly, um, you know,
shrooms, everything. And it was just
an escape for me. I was just young, you know,
like everybody in the industry and people in the world
who experiment and do, you know, just normal growing up things.But my experience
was in front of cameras,
and I had a different level
of exposure and people.
And, like, I had a lot
of money and a lot of things,
so then you have all these
people around me
just kind of hanging on,
wanting stuff from me, knowing that, like,
I was living this lifestyle that they also wanted to live– drinking, smoking. I think when you take
somebody very, very young and they start to get horrible,
crazy, crippling anxiety, and it goes undiagnosed and you don’t know what it is
that you’re feeling, you start to self-medicate because it makes you
feel better, just helping you
not to feel anything. With all the success
that we’ve had, we’ve also had some
really turbulent times. ( crowd cheering )When he turned 18, it started
bubbling a little bit.
19 to, what was it, 21?That was probably
that dark period. Ryan:
We didn’t speak a lot
during some of the times
where he was running amok. You know, there were a few times
where I saw him, uh, and it just kind of
hurt my heart seeing him
the way he was, you know? So I think I just kind of
put a little distance with that for my own sake.It would just go without sayingthat my position on the path
he was going down–
but at the same time,
just letting him
live his life and learn and,I don’t know,
just do his thing.
I know that Justin knows
a good person from a– I don’t even know if anyone
was a bad person. It was just kids mostly. But, like, knows good from bad
and knows right from wrong. And he’s making
some wrong decisions, but I never really believed
that that person that the whole world
hated so much was who he is. Woman:Last week, the singer
was arrested in Miami
for allegedly drag racing,
driving under the influence,
and resisting arrest–
all misdemeanors.
Bieber’s attorneys pleaded
not guilty on Wednesday.
Justin:I started
valuing the wrong things
in this business
because there was things
dangling in front of me.
“If I get this, I’ll be happy. If I do this, I’ll be happy.” He’s gone through a lot
in a very short life. You don’t always agree
with someone’s decisions
in that moment. They’re young people making
very big decisions that affect
a lot of people. And sometimes in those
scenarios, you’re gonna make
the right decisions. Sometimes you’re gonna
make wrong. Justin:And these are thingsthat I think a lot of peoplewith secure householdslearn at a young age.I never had that security
in a family. I never had that consistency.I never had the reliability
and the accountability
and all these things
that make you understand the way the world works. I was a good kid, but I was still,
like, a shithead.I was bad in school.I was always a class clown.I never really respected
authority like that.
I was, like, a nice kid,but, like,
coaches didn’t really like me
because I was a bad
team player.
You know, looking back,
those things kind of shape
why you feel the way
you feel about yourself.
Like, I would feel like
I’m a bad person. His mother was a child
when she raised him.And she was in
a very conflicted
relationship with his dad.And so there
was chronic stress. The truth is
is I never had the tools. My parents never
gave me those tools to be a good team player. When you’re able
to take responsibility–
I know I did that and I know that did hurt people
because I did that,but I can look at that
and not have shame over it.
Justin and I were never
really in each other’s livesuntil he chose to get soberand was trying to come
off of the drugs
almost kind of himself. I decided to stop… because I felt like
I was, like– like, brah,
I was, like, dying. My security and stuff
were coming into the room at night to check my pulse. People don’t know
how serious it got. It was legit crazy scary. I was waking up in the morning
and the first thing I was doing is popping pills
and smoking a blunt and starting my day,
you know? So it just got scary. I basically said to myself, I’m like,
“God, if you’re real, you get me through this season of stopping
these pills and stuff, and if you do,
I’ll do the rest of the work.” And then I did that,
and then I was good from there, but I never did
the actual work. I got off the pills,
but I never went to the root
of everything. So then I just, like,
kind of circled back around,
which most people do. So I first met Justin
in September, 2014. He was a wreck. He had recently
stopped using drugs. He was anxious,
overwhelmed, not sleeping. Yeah. Mental health is so important
to get on top of. If you have ADHD,
if you have something that, uh, you don’t want to take medicine,
I strongly believe in it. It’s not the only answer,
but it can really help you, so that’s my advice to you. Anyways, this is the chamber. So what it does is it fills up
with oxygen and, um– I really– I’ve been struggling
with a lot of anxiety. And what it does is it
actually– you get more oxygen
to your brain, and so it– it, um, decreases your–
your stress levels. I think they’re pretty cool. Hailey:It help bring more
oxygen to your brain,
to your organs.We have one in our house. As you can see in the doc, there was one in the studio. People are gonna think
he’s a crazy person. People are gonna be like, “What is this
contraption machine?” That’s some,
like, rich people shit.” I don’t know. – How are you?
– I’m tired. I’m good. – Let me look at you.
– Can I, um, just address
the camera real quick? – Please. Go ahead.
– Okay, um, so I am here
in the doctor’s office. And what we are
about to do is, uh, the nurse is gonna put in an IV,
and it’s called NAD. Um, and basically
what it does is it is going to flush out
some of the toxins. Um, I’ve, uh– I’ve abused
my body in the past. And now I’m just
in recovery process trying to make sure
I’m taking care of my body and taking care of, uh,
the vessel that God’s given me. So here we go. You ready? This is Jose. He’s the best. Such a good guy. For people who used to have
a drug problem,when they get sober,
the pleasure centers
of their brain
don’t work the same.
So what NAD does is
it actually helps to repair
that part of the brain
and helps to repair
your pleasure centers
to balance them back out. So I’ve been struggling
with my, um, energy for quite some time now and I just haven’t known why. Uh, and it’s just– I realized, uh,
after a series of tests that I have what’s called
Lyme disease, which is
a super silent disease that’s not really, um,
very well-known. Um, doctors– it’s very hard
for doctors to test for it. Lyme disease is the fastest
growing bacterial infection in the United States
right now.And we know that it can cause
a whole spectrum
of neuropsychiatric symptoms. Mood changes, irritability, depression, anxiety. Justin fits the picture
of these symptoms. Epstein-Barr, which is mono,
uh, I have that, too. That in itself,
mono makes you really sick and it makes you feel
really tired. And some people can’t
get out of bed because of it. He saw a psychiatrist
in Los Angeles who diagnosed him
with bipolar disorder and gave him lithium without
ever looking at his brain. When I looked at his brain,
he wasn’t bipolar. Basically infections have, uh,
played a big part in my acne, um, and my, uh,
overall toxins in my body, which just creates
all this stuff. So it feels good now to know why I feel so crappy
all the time. He just felt so sick and there was no explanation
for what was going on. So now that we have
all the answers, and we know what it is,
and we know how to, um, alleviate it and fix it, you know,
I think he’s honestly not only healthier
than he’s ever been, but on the road to maintaining a healthier life
than he’s ever had,
which is awesome. How are you feeling today?
Better? Much better? I do. I feel–
Yeah, I feel a lot better.
Thank you for asking. Having got to know Justin, I know he’s got
a really good heart. And when he’s balanced, he does really amazing things
for other people. But it’s hard to do
amazing things for other people
when your brain’s not right. Justin:
Honestly, I’m committed
to getting better
and committed to doing
whatever I have to do
whether it’s
inconvenient or not,
because I know ultimately
it’s not only for me,
but being the best me is gonna
help me the best husband,
the best father,
the best friend
I can possibly be.
And for all the fans
that want to enjoy the music
that I make and stuff,
I can’t do it
if I’m not healthy,
and I haven’t been healthy
for a long time.
Thank you. You’re the best.
Thank you so much. You’ve helped me so much.
Thank you. – Hey.
– ( laughing ) – Hello.
– Hey! Hey! – See how that
revitalizes you?
– Yep. Hey, let’s go!There’s so many people
that have gifts
and an opportunity
to make a change,
and they end up
either losing it or, you know, um,
using their gifts for… selfish reasons. And, you know, I see so many
talented people just– almost like it feels like they’re wasting
something so precious. It’s up to us as individuals to use the gifts
that we’ve been given, you know, whatever it may be,
to contribute.In the song “Changes,”
it actually talks about, um,
how some days we want
to push further,
and some days we feel
like doing nothing.
And that often
comes with our mood
and our attitude
towards life, you know?
And sometimes
when life throws you things
that you can’t control, you know,
naturally your attitude
is to be upset or to be disappointed
or discouraged. But, you know,
when you fight through
those feelings that are– that are just feelings
at the end of the day, and choose to put
your effort into your work or into your– you know,
into your passion or into– you know,
you find that drive. But just being here
and forcing myself
to get out of bed, you know, it might not seem
that hard to some people to just get out of bed
in the morning, but it’s been really hard for me
to just get out of my bed. And I know a lot of people
feel that same way, so I just also want to say that you’re not alone
in that, you know? There’s people that are
going through it with you. Life is worth living. And if you’re
not gonna give up, then the only thing to do
is to push forward.♪ Sometimes I’ll go
to sleep early ♪
♪ Sometimes I can’t close
my eyes ♪
♪ Sometimes I smile like
it’s all good ♪
It feels good to share, man,
to be honest. It feels good. I haven’t, no.
I haven’t talked about
any of this. Not like this, ’cause I–
I don’t think I was ready. I don’t think
I was mature enough to even take responsibility and, like, really mean it.♪ I be going through changes ♪♪ I’m going through changes ♪♪ I’ve been going through ♪♪ I’m going through ♪

100 thoughts on “The Dark Season – Justin Bieber: Seasons

  1. Desde sempre eu sabia que a vida dele ia virar polêmica, ele deixou o sucesso subir cabeça acima , não gosto dele, acho ele ignorante, arrogante, convencido que é o máximo, ja vi vídeos dele maltratado muitas pessoas , fãs e repórter, ele é um babaca, idiota e o pior que tem gente idolatrando esse tipinho de artista. Tem gosto pra tudo né? Eu ignoro.

  2. I can feel you Justin i have an anxiety too . Praying for your fast recovery. And thank you hailey for being on his side. You can get through this Justin. Remember you're a belieber ! Nothings impossible with god.

  3. The video is absolutely fake guys. Why we should believe anything people want us to believe. This kind of content makes people happy that celebs suffer as well. The facts are rich people suffer but they can afford a rehabilitation and we normal guys cannot. Everyone has problems rich or poor but poor people may not have the chance for solution

  4. so this is like, he’s giving excuses why he was a shithead and blames on his parents that didn’t give him boundaries???? like????? you’re a popstar, that aren’t no boundaries when you’re 19 year old popstar. what a terrible excuse

  5. Eu te amo demais , aliás sempre te amei , sempre acreditei no seu potencial você é incrível, você é um homem e tanto, em meio a tantos problemas conseguiu assumir que estava errado , melhorar suas posturas buscando sempre se tornar alguém melhor. Você é um exemplo se superação, te desejo toda sorte e felicidade do mundo que Deus te abençoe sempre , eu e milhares de pessoas nesse mundo a fora te amamos e confiamos no seu potencial vc é incrível, vc consegue!!!!!!

  6. Con padres o sin padres si eres inteligente y ya te das xuenta de todo sabras a qie camino ir
    Los genios no nacen se hacen
    Nose que tenga que ver pero deja tu like

  7. I would just like to say, the comments on Justin's videos and posts are much better today than a month ago. It's usually all spam messages.

  8. I suffer from anxiety, and it is difficult to deal with so much but the only thing that helps is unconditional support, and the medicine is difficult because people do not see beyond that you are a problematic boy or that you are in bad steps or that you only seek attention but they don't see how shocking it is to suffer from anxiety and depression so not many of us have the money to oxygenate our body but we are slowly getting ahead so justin force

  9. @justinbieber
    I went through the same anxiety and everything
    Pushed myself to the end of worst side wherein I couldn't tell my parents
    Because I didn't know what I'm going through I was overwhelmed and anxious
    Ruined what had to be done
    I still have the pain in me
    And it sometimes hits me up again n again
    And now I'm completely shattered thinking of where do I start 😔😞😭😑

  10. Before coming to Amen Clinics, Justin had been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, a condition that is often misdiagnosed. In fact, 57% of people diagnosed with bipolar disorder don’t actually have the condition, according to a 2008 study from researchers at Brown University. Justin’s brain scans showed something other than bipolar disorder, and it changed the course of his care. You can see more about what his brain scans revealed in the episode. Keep going Justin – we are proud of you.

  11. The soul needs nourishment like the body, and you will find it only in the relationship with God, and who will lead you to a correct relationship is correct and real Islam.ask whoever becomes a Muslim of you, and you will know the meaning of the soul comfort or what you call it inner peace

  12. I love you brother

    I’m in the same state, im getting thought it
    And i will never give up

    I love you people
    We are brothers


  13. i felt like… it hit all the deep edges inside me. Justin you're so strong, so so great, you are getting better and better every single day and i being a belieber am so proud of you. i just want you to get outta all of this shit asap and become the legend you are. i really really love you! I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU DECIDED TO JUST COME OUT AND SHARE ALL OF THIS WITH US AND I- you're the best. the absolute best out there. stay blessed and keep movin, we are right here beside you, now and forever. ♡♡♡

  14. This boy has got to get off the anti depressants and the concoction of medication they’re shoving down his throat. He’s so convinced that he’s irreparably sick that he’s manifesting it into reality. He’s been going through an out of touch, weird phase for a long LONG time now and in recent pictures he just looks worse than ever. He will not make the end of his tour. He needs REAL help the same kind of help that turned Zac Efron around, this can only come from people who love you. Who is genuinely guiding this boy out of love? He’s in a hell of a spot.

  15. We’ve lost so many young talented people due to pills and lean. I’m glad you were able to overcome that difficult point in your life man. Couldn’t imagine if we lost you aswell.

  16. Best Documentary series ever and I love you so much Justin Bieber. I have been a beliber since 2008 since your first video on your channel and I have supported you through everything. Keep up the good work and making music bro. You and Hailey are my inspiration and favorite Couple and I have watched you you grow up from a kid and now to a very handsome, sexy man and Hailey is very lucky to have you. Keep up the good work the both of you and don’t let the haters get to you PERIOD.

  17. God Bless him, great news, I wish someone loved wd do this, something as healthy 📰👍⭐✨✝️✝️✝️✡️✝️

  18. Justin, good on you!! Sooooo glad you are pursuing a healthy happy lifestyle now because you are such a blessing to this cra-cra world!! Life IS worth living… your journey is hauntingly familiar and relatable… blessings rich, deep, immersive and far far reaching upon you… sooo looking forward to all the gifts of music and otherwise… just of humanity, you will be releasing upon this reality…. as you walk it now sober, saintly and saved… blessings upon sweet Hailey too….

  19. Justin, take care of Hailey. She is a fantastic and beautiful woman, she has helped you a lot as a person, I hope to see you together for a long time and do not listen to the negative comments

  20. Thank u so much Justin for these episodes. I cannot describe how much courage u have to share this story with everyone. I am speechless.. this has made me fall in love with your personality. We all struggle but coming out of it is nearly impossible. And u r doing it. U r talking about your mental health issues soo openly , but the pain you feel while speaking every single word about your problem , it is just unimaginable. Truly!!!!
    Your childhood circumstances and then the sudden fame. And so many other things . They all have contributed to your present state. But none of your attitude , money or aggression is going to help you to get pulled away from this deadly state. Only pure determination and faith can and will make you the best version of youself. It is so greattttt to know that you have your lovely wife to support you . Always love your near and dear ones. And life is precious , after all the struggle , you will smile and thank yourself for not giving up !!!!!!
    This vedio in itself is more than sufficient to help people struggling with mental health problems. And guys , superstar singer Justin is suffering from all these and just not giving up !!! Why not take some inspiration and HELP !!!!!!!

  21. Broke my heart that he went through a lot without us noticing. But I'm so glad he is recovering now and he has his wife by his side. Hailey is an absolute angel!

  22. Pendejo te dejaste influenciar y ahora teves como un idiota pero no todo está perdido ese lucha porque eso que te as metido jugando ahora lo pagas tirando. Y no no están esos años que yamavas amigos tean dejado alaverga solo y con tu vicio pero no te dejes cabron échale ganas para que te recuperes pronto bendiciones mi Bieber y pa lante

  23. I never judged Justine. Because he literally has always been the same person i mean he never fakes being someone else. He grew up and went through so many situations and problems caused by his recklessness. Like a very typical guy in his young,uncertain and immature period of life. Respect!

  24. I think I used to hate him without reason. Yes, we all saw that dark period of his life but now that I'm older I understand him, we can all go through dark periods in our lives, I had mine when I was younger and it was horrible for me and everybody who cares about my life. The thing is that everything that happened to him was in the public eye, always in front of cameras… He was so young at the time, I hope he can be happy now

  25. Wey te miras sin ganas de ni madres te miras desesperado por otra docis verdad,??? y yo te miro demacrado que vergüenza me das culero te ayas mantenido en el camino del señor y no estarías asi

  26. I admire him so much more now seeing what he's gone through and the courage he has to share his struggles so people know they're not alone.

  27. Hailey in true sense is a lady . She is so calm and a positive person around justin what he need the most in his life . People commenting hailey is not the perfect girl for justin . She proves them all wrong. The journey justin is on is not really easy and she is supporting him so religiously with all the love. Now that's what we call is perfect .

  28. Making music while always feeling tired must be miserable without his wonderful wife Hailey. To be honest, Hailey has probably been the best thing to ever happen to him.

  29. JUSTIN! It's amazing to see The Way GOD IS CHANGING YOUR LIFE AND strengthens you ! hallelujah !!! You are in my prayers dear Justin.

  30. Jesus loves you
    we are praying for you

    Te amo sua felicidade é a minha
    Sua tristeza é a minha

    Fan continues to love
    If you could see how much you are loved.
    I'd be happy every day

  31. Most people think that our artist that our favorite singer can have a perfect life, a life of comforts and luxuries but we never question ourselves, what is behind everything is the scene of all that production, but we never wonder how our singer feels in his emotions of our artist, and in the end we see is how we have the same problems as us, what is human like everyone else and although maybe he is in another position maybe social or economic, in the end he has his own problems like any other ordinary person
    I confess that I am a fan of Justin Bieber and lodged his story, in this video he makes me sad for what happened and humanizes us more for sharing his story God bless you. Justin 🙏🏼
    Saludos desde México 🇲🇽

  32. This fucking broke my heart. He's one of the few things that used to basically keep me alive when I was struggling with depression, bpd and anorexia and knowing that he was going through all this while I was in hospital listening to his music and looking up to him, it just breaks my heart. I wish I knew, even tho it wouldn't have changed anything, I just wish I knew how miserable he was. This guy deserves the world.

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